Lyrics – Pseudovision

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i had a dream last night
that you were someone else’s problem
and i had a feeling you might
strike a conversation up like nothing’s died

she didn’t sleep much last night
now she’s dumping the drink that i bought her in the parking lot
‘cause she drank too much wine
now i’m wasting my time
thinking ‘bout all the shit that you talk on your friends at the restaurant
‘cause it’s raining inside

while strangers dance
in the other room
posing like a saint
tell me what you’re so afraid of
and you knew right then
that i needed you
pushed me out the way
just so you could watch me break

she’s got a look in her eyes
half-closed talk slow
tight clothes and a pack of smokes
getting wasted tonight
she said i’ve wasted tonight
and i know that you’re one drink away from another man’s ride
i hear the men i trust outside

you could try to get to know her but she’s a demon
and i’m the being
i seem to be the soul she’s eating
the slow depleting
i’ll cease to be some kind of stranger
i’ll cease the anger
finally

i haven’t heard from you for weeks

you told me today you’re a mess without me

the way it’s showing in your face

the way you haven’t cleaned your place

and i could never grow into boys like you

‘cause boys like you are nice until there’s something new

and you could never grow past the stupid games

anyways

i haven’t told you this yet

but everything is gonna end tonight

you couldn’t give an answer

so i never asked you to make up your mind

i might show up just to say bye

saving your secrets like reasons to leave me

the drive to your place was so long

i was speeding

and i’m not you so i don’t know

the words that stuck behind your throat

and you were so much older but i still knew

that i’d be writing letters that i’d never send to you

and you should save your breath for your next mistake

anyways

i haven’t told you this yet

but everything is gonna end tonight

before i stood up and left

i put on your shirt and drank all of your wine

this time i mean it when i say bye

you stayed in me like i was a hotel

you only ever talked about yourself

i said i don’t wanna hear about some ghost you met

when you were twelve

you didn’t care to know the body you’re beside

my body is cold and alone

nothing has to give

nothing has to change

no one gets to live

let me be insane

walking through the walls

rooms that rearrange

i can hear your voice

saying life is strange

there’s no win or lose

it’s just over

when i clung to you

i needed closure

you can’t see the bruise

you’re hungover

when i comfort you

it rips my sutures

before i met the world outside my head

there was only your advice

i had worn you like a rope around my neck

while you carried on with life

when i walk by you

can you feel me?

what’d I do to you?

why’d you kill me?

sewed this smile for you

is it pretty?

hold up lights for you

to trust you blindly

i’m in a loop

took off my shoes

to walk in circles

when you clung to me

you needed closure

now we’re in between

so start it over

first one here

i tried so hard to disappear

when my eyes were welded shut

i saw the past when i was young

nothing is as it seems

caught in the rearview machine

i relive the moment

assemble components

dig my feet in the ground

it’s behind me

careful, my circuit will blow

if you hold me down

feel the walls as they’re closing in on me

the cracks in the bricks are opening

i’m trapped in the moment

don’t feed the compulsion

repressing emotions

has broken me open

all the things that we shouldn’t say

all the secrets we never tell

when you’re kissing me on the street

follow you through the gates of hell

would you let me burn down your place?

i would let you lie to my face

i could just hear your laugh for days

lie awake but you’re sound asleep

it’s a game that we like to play

it’s a game and we play it well

and i’m taking my rightful place

in your bedroom beneath your belt

had a woman, she walked away

now i have you all to myself

so you look at me with those eyes

i want all that you got to

give it to me how you want it

give it to me like he should

look at me like i’m your lover

love me like a lover would

tell me just how much you want it

you don’t have to save the world

look at me i’m your lover

love me like a lover would

watching all the windows fog

know you like the view

ever-changing perceptions

as i lean into you

you know i don’t want the truth

‘cause i’m so damn confused

i’m not gonna breathe for you

if you don’t ask me to

it’s a game that we like to play

it’s a game and we play it well

and i’m taking my rightful place

in your bedroom beneath your belt

it’s a game that we like to play

as his hands go beneath my skirt

so i take off my angel wings

and i give him what he deserves

and I don’t want to need it, babe

you’re too damn good a reason, babe

would you tell me your middle name?

dangerous in your t-shirt

know you won’t let me keep it

now i’m facing your bedroom door

almost like i’ve been here before

you’d get away with murder

criminal how you hurt her

take me with you this time

i wanna feel what it’s like to fly

i’ve spent so long on the ground

and it’s eating me alive right now

are we gonna ever go out like the stars in the sky?

i’ll stay

alone

you could go

faceless, nameless, so evasive

sun won’t rise

caged, impatient, calling, pacing

lost the line

i’ll be right here

come around

if you could bear

to be right here

or let this go

in my mind

it wouldn’t all be so bad

if i had the time

i could face it

complicate it, waste it

leaving me in pieces

wishing you would break

i can hear them saying

“i hope that she makes it”

“i think she should run”

where were you when i needed you the most?

you look so far when you’re standing so close

can you take me home?

if you want to

but i don’t want you to leave

i think that you should stay

i’ve died so many times to get you here

now that we’re close

turn down my road

this shouldn’t change

you shouldn’t go

please stay the same

nothing will ever be right here

to my love still asleep upstairs

i left coffee for you there

jigsaw puzzles were so hard by myself

i breeze through them with you here

i only feel fear

whenever you’re near

i left my heart up there with you

packed up all my stuff save for a kiss goodbye

after while when there’s nothing new

i pack up my stuff and as i’m leaving

i feel like a kiss goodbye

if i stay one more night

i might stay all my life

i’ve been paving roads

i know they won’t be leading home

i took a detour when i saw you there with her

now i’m the bad guy

know i have no right

to take what’s not mine

i should’ve given him a kiss goodbye

she set her sights

could’ve sworn i’d seen your face

on a stranger that’s passing me by in the rain

couldn’t fall asleep last night

so i stayed up imagining you by my side

shouldn’t think like it’s my fault

but i can’t help but feel like i did something wrong

should’ve known you weren’t fine

there’s a face that you make when you try not to cry

what do i do now?

i’m so sorry for this mess

when you say “it’s okay” but i don’t know the rest

you’ve got your life, i’ve got mine

but i’ll miss you a little bit all of the time

i’m so happy that i had you here with me

driving on your street at night

almost like it’s the first time

that was then

haven’t heard from you that much

promise that we keep in touch

this is now

CREDITS

All lyrics by Raquel Wagner.

with additional writing by:

Maya Ballard: Vanity Advice

Katherine Brauer: Like a Lover Would and Kiss Goodbye

Ryan Tarbutton: Tripping the Breaker, What it’s Like to Fly, Nothing is Permanent

Colin West: Strangers in the Other Room, What it’s Like to Fly